Good Girl Bad Intentions

When losing yourself you tend to do weird things. WHen there is no peace anywhere you tend to go crazy. Home for me was getting worse, and now my safe space was corrupted. So corrupted that i had to brainwash myself into thinking it was safe. Into thinking that i needed it and that everything was going to be ok. Life was a fairy tail to me.I was locking myself away. After J had apologized to me and i tried to forgive him. I just couldnt trust him again. I knew i didnt love him anymore. But i hated being home more than anything. So i compromised i still hung around but i just stayed in his room or in his face to seem like i was there for his company.I was really there to avoid my problems. Everything was going really good but then she came around. We will call her K. She was a really kind person honestly. Now that i think about it all the weird shit i did to her i wish i hadnt done. Honestly it wasnt her fault. I mean talking shit was definantly her fault, and her thinking she c...

When I was 15 I felt like i was really at the darkest point in my life. My parents and I werent getting along. I basically hated my mother. She was a horrible person to me, and my father basically was just a lap dog to her. I seen him as less than a man but her pet. My brothers werent on my side at all either. They were the fakest of the fake to me saying one thing and then turning around and kissing my parents ass after. I needed a safe space i needed refuge. And thats when i met him. He was a friend of one of my closest friends today. Who knew he wouldve took me on a rollercoaster that i never asked to be on. We are going to call him J because hes the biggest joke ive ever met in my life. But before my eyes opened he was the love of my life at one point.We spent almost every second together. My parents liked him because he was the same sign as them. Which shouldve been red flag number one for me.But anyways he was good at wearing a mask. He was bringing me everything I wanted ...

Hello all! Its been a while since ive told you the crazy adventures that ive been on. Thats because sadly the girl has settled down and started a family. But lets not let that stop us from the other things that we have been through. The first step of growth is identifying ,aknowledging and acceptence and im not too ashamed to say that i have been that weird girl. The weird girl that was obsessed, crazy and did some insane shit. I think there are 3 types of obsessive people. People who obsess out of jealousy. Why can’t I have that ? How can they take this from me? What do they have that I don’t. Are the questions that run through the minds of this one. The second one infatuations .Why can’t they love me like that ? We have to be together . They have to stay with me. I have to do whatever i can to make them love me. And last but not least sexual desires. I need your body. I want you to want me. Id do anything to have your body in this way. Now I’ve only experienced two of these obses...